Railing Against the Wind

I stand on the mountain top shaking my fists at the sky and screaming my protest against the trials of it all. The beurauracracy, my stupidity, my lack of forethought. I am drizzling my nickels & dimes. I will never get out from under this heavy rock . My tiny heart is pinched. I will hunt down the president of Dell and fart in his general direction. I will kick the insurance covered pets of Comcast employees . I will pee on every meter in the city of Boston. Aaarrrrgggghhhh !!!!
There is no recourse for the little rank & file ant customer againt the cog-churning behomouths that run everything. I have to get off the grid. I need to be self -sufficient, learn how to survive in the wild . Just me, a down sleeping bag, a knife and a trusty uninsured mutt. Just me and books in a cave in the woods. . . .And Cheetoes. I will not go gently into that good night without snacks. . .

How Things Have Changed

Due to a domestic situation, I am spending a lot more time at home cooking & cleaning. Yes, that is not a typo-cooking & cleaning. In the last couple of months I have become adept at making scrambled eggs, pea soup from scratch & fantastic grilled cheese sandwiches. I can make a complete dinner -Salad, mashed potatoes, meat entree and dessert in under an hour. However, what has prompted my writing tonight was that I bought a turkey during this week's grocery shopping . I got an almost 12 pound turkey for $6.50. It was on sale for .49 a pound. It's frozen and I'm going to have to start defrosting it 3 days before Thanksgiving. . .. but . . . .dammit. . .I have a turkey.
No, I have never cooked a turkey before. However, if I was going to completely trash a turkey in the learning process, $6.50 seems like a more than reasonable price to pay for the experience. I am excited. I got a bargain. An edible bargain. I have attempted to cook a turkey twice before and was unable to carry through with the effort. Let's just say I was shot and was unable to finish the battle. It being a holiday with the family, "battle"seems like an appropriate word to use.
When I am done cooking said bargain turkey, I will make turkey soup. No, I have never made turkey soup from scratch either. This is the year. I am old enough and I am brave enough. There ! So, I will let you know how it goes.

Computer Woes

I did a de-frag (incorrectly ) on my home computer. It is fried. However, I found the original discs that came with the computer , so, I might be able to restore it. You know, I've had the same computer since 2001. I really only use it for email, internet and this blog (occassionally). It's been slow for a while.The de-frag did speed it up but now I can pretty much ONLY do email. I am blogging to you from my company laptop. I went to my phone company and they "Tethered" my laptop to my cellphone. So, instead of getting an internet card, I can use my cellphone to connect to the the internet. It's about the same price as an internet card, $60.00 a month. I won't have this for more than a month. I can blog from my laptop. Mostly, I'm just excited I found the original discs and I am hopeful that I can restore my computer. Also, I'm pretty impressed that I figured out how to tether my laptop. I can't believe I've been able to do this without crying !!!! I'm close to it, from fatigue, but not computer frustration. ..

A Light at the End of the Tunnel

A Light at the End of the Tunnel

Sorry it's been so long but it's a combination of being really busy and my computer crapping out when I try to get to this site. My friend Marina has given me a recipe to de-frag the thing, so, I am going to try that right after I post this.
I've just been busy working. I am glad to have a job but it does wear me out . I worked a convention yesterday & today and I had some time before I went in to work yesterday and I got a project I had started but not finished , finished yesterday. I felt so good all day long. It was just changing my file drawers over from 2008 to 2009. I had started it, but I have been avoiding it , successfully, for more than 2 months now. It was always there in the back of my head. My room looks like a bomb hit it or a mini cyclone came through and the original person who lived here was still in emergency housing somewhere. I reclaimed some ground and it felt good.
I finished reading Walter Moseley's most recent book "the Long Fall".I received it for my birthday. Next week, I am working on a movie shooting here in Boston. I've got 6 days on it. I'm just an extra , but it's cool. It should be a good chunk of money when the checks start rolling in. I can't tell you who the star of the movie is, until I 've worked on it. My last day will be May 26, so I'll try to post after that .
Really, that's all I have to report.

A Snatch I Overheard

I haven't written because, frankly, I haven't had much to share. There was a naked guy in the bathroom today and the Ranger had to get him out. However, upon further investigation, the guy was naked in the stall . So-the guy who reported the naked guy had to have been pearing into the closed stall to determine that the guy in there was naked. Which later led to a discussion where someone's kids can only move their bowels while completly naked. It was cute when they were little toddlers, but they're now 8 & 10. These kids are going to grow up and not be able to move their bowels in a public rest room. See .. . . I got "shit" to talk about. . .
However, I heard this little snatch of conversation on a street downtown recently. ..
I was walking by a father and his young son. The son was about 4 and he was making a loud a flapping noise with his feet as he walked. As I passed, I overheard the father saying " . . . Well maybe your feet wouldn't hurt so much if you walked more quietly. . . . . "
Check and Mate . ..

Lucky Me

Well, I'm an hour away from the end of my shift. Today, I'm working from 10 am to 9 pm. It was a lot busier today. Last night, I was hired to be an extra in a Boston Bruins commercial. There were 7 of us. I had to be there at 5PM and they released us at 12:30 AM. It was a long day to just be sitting around , but it's going to pay pretty well. I look forward to that check. I am also looking forward to this check I got coming up. I'm very lucky to be so tired from all this work I've been getting. I haven't done my grocery shopping, so my cubbard is bare. Oh Im rambling. . .but I'm feel very greatful.

At It Again

Here I am , the old rockpile. I'm working 12-9 again today. It's a little busier. I am trying to make eye contact, smile and nod. There are a lot of little kids running for all they're worth because there is a lot of open space and rug. They run and giggle.Just the simple act of running can cause a kid to laugh uproariously. If I run like that , I get short of breath and wonder if this is the start of the inevitable heart attack that I am expecting because I don't take that good care of myself. I don't drink or smoke , I drink green tea but there is no accumulation of exercise and vegetables. I have been whittling a little bit. I've been eating a thing called "breakfast"; apparently it's pretty big with the kids these days. Anyway . . . .I eat one of these "Breakfasts" and I don't feel the urge to eat for quite a few hours. Consequently, I was able to zip my skirt up all the way to the top today, instead of an inch from the top , which is what I usually do.
I brought a 2 liter bottle of water , my lunch and some healthy snacks-carrots, apple, granola bar. I even went for a walk along the building to get some fresh air & exercise. Probably too little , too late. . . . .